heh, so...

[grayxx]

WARNING: THE FOLLOWING POST AND ITS POSTER ARE EXTREMELY STUPID.

Heh, so, here's the thing. Gray is a rather strange and finicky creature, extremely awkward, who makes tons of rash and poorly-thought-out choices. Gray also changes her mind a lot and never knows what's going on inside her own head.

I have my first ever date tomorrow. I have a very stupid and just generally... well, stupid problem.

The guy I'm going out with was a set-up from my friend. He liked my friend, my friend has no feelings (jk) and made him talk to me instead because she wanted him to like me and me to like him. And then I did like him. And then he said he liked me.

And now I don't like him anymore I don't think. But I'm seeing him tomorrow. TOMORROW. And I don't even wanna go anymore. I just wanna stay home and curl up in bed and read books and be lonely and single forever! I like him, or I did. At this point, I always second guess myself. I could very well still like him (I probably do but I don't know) but this is the point where I'm always just like...

Shit, well, what if this was the wrong choice? What if I'm not ready for this? What if I thought wrong? I don't think I can do this. -insert hyperventilation here- What if he likes me waaay more than I like him? What if his mouth is really nasty (something I'm always afraid of. I have a hard time even talking to people if their mouths look kind of gross. It's a quirk of mine and I'm super paranoid/picky about mouths.)

So I'm in kind of a dilemma... what's wrong with me? It feels like I only ever like a guy that isn't available to me. I don't know what to do. I'm super screwed up and freaked out now.

[Fork!ology]

Trust me, I have the same exact issues. It's just your anxiety. If I were you, I'd go just and see. If you don't like him, you don't have to go out with him again.

[PINK ROSE !]

I agree with Fork! I think you should just go. Honestly you never know. I'm just like you! When things get past the 'I like you, you like me' part, I get panicky and paranoid and I end up cutting it off. Trust me. It's not fun. Just see what happens. I don't think it could hurt.

[Shells]

I definitely agree with them, Gray ^^ I've had the EXACT same issues, as I'm sure many, many people have that aren't just flourishing socialites :p I always had the toughest time finding a guy that I even liked because they truly are hard to find for someone like me who likes staying home and just reading or playing video games or role-playing instead of going out clubbing or something lol.

BUT seven months ago, I met a guy that I actually liked for once, and we went on our first few dates. I had these EXACT problems in the beginning (I was so nervous to hang out with him that I considered just cancelling and staying home to do something less scary xD, and many times even when we had started calling each other bf and gf, I questioned whether I really liked him and when it would get easier. But after sticking it out for the first month or two, holy crap am I glad I did. I love this kid and he's my best friend. I think you should definitely go for it, and like the others said, if it doesn't work, then it doesn't work. But the end results are just too good to pass up ^^

Sorry if this was long, but your situation just sounded wayy too similar to mine :p I hope you decide to go and end up having fun!

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[grayxx]

I wasn't gonna back out, there are too many people who would rag on me forever if I did xD and I don't wanna hurt the guy's feelings. It's really good to know I'm not alone, I'm not weird or messed up, or too insane for the world to handle. Thank you guys(: most of my real life friends don't understand me at all -__- they don't read enough, stay inside enough, or RP and therefore do not understand me. I feel a bit better now. iloveyouguyssss<3